Keep Calm and Wait For The One

Like what I wrote in my previous post, I am the stupid girl in the scenario again. I guess there is really something wrong with me. And that is thinking that every guy who suddenly comes into my life is my soulmate.

It has been like this for awhile, going into false conclusions, fantasizing quite often and then bam, ending up disappointed, broken-hearted and hurt. Like all the freaking time. Is this a hobby of mine which is oblivious to my mind?? (Okay, that rhymes. Hehe.) But I reckon this is definitely a disease, or perhaps a curse because how come I cannot seem to learn from my countless mistakes in the past. I cannot even figure out why I am letting myself suffer, despite the fact that I am smart enough to keep in mind that it is mind over heart when it comes to these matters. Well, one thing is proven true: I'm an idiot when in love.

But this time, I am so proud of myself because little by little I'm coping and growing up because somehow I actually learned this time, though the pain and heartbreak were inevitable. Before I fall deeper and deeper, I actually got to run away before the pain and everything else unpleasant aggravates within me. I cannot afford to burst like a teeny tiny bubble; I am not that weak and pathetic! Nonetheless, right now my feelings are still beyond sky level, so I will wait them out to fluctuate and then eventually my heart would be as good as new, no visible sign of brokenness or tampering of this fragile piece of me. All I need too is something (or somebody, hihi) to divert my attention to, a distraction, a mirage, anyone who will prevent me from thinking of "the past."

Speaking of the past, I must not speak of it because I might totally see myself be reeled into it. Besides, it would be the bitter part of me who would do the talking, so shall we talk about the future instead? Despite my hopeless case with my love life, nothing can make me stop from believing that someday my prince will truly come. As cheesy as that may sound, yes, I am one of those girls who grew up believing in fairy tales, Prince Charmings and happy-ever-afters. Haha! I still dream that one day, someday, he will come into my life unknowingly and sweep me off my feet, lifting me up from all my misery and frustrations.Hahaha, well, a girl can dream, can't she??

So yeah, keep calm and wait for the one. 'Cause you actually have no choice. Either that, or follow my footsteps from my heart-rending, full-of-pain days, and feel all hell for yourself. Choose wisely!