Never expect, never assume, never ask, and never demand. Just let it be. Because if it's meant to be, it will be.

I always have this bad habit of assuming and expecting. I don't know why, but maybe because I believe things easily and I over-analyze them to the point that I have convinced myself into thinking that what I'm actually thinking is damn true. I don't know what is worse: assuming and expecting about something then realizing you got it all wrong or the fact that it was too good to be true and yet you were such an idiot to even believe it. Perhaps nothing is much worse than the other, they both cause a lot of pain and hatred.

I'm not even sure how I fell deeply this time, again with no one willing to catch me. I was manipulated by my fantasies, assumptions and expectations. They provoked me to over-think about something that was not even true nor real. Am I that stupid to fall for that for the nth time? Everything is happening all over again and I'm always in the same shoes every freaking single time: the stupid girl in the scenario, running after her dreams, and by her dreams meaning some guy she fell for, who doesn't feel the same way towards her. Oh my god, pathetic. That's one word you could definitely describe that girl. That girl or me.

I also don't have any idea why I'm so affected big time. The heck with this soft heart of mine! Also, I'm not so sure if I even like him like how it seems like. Did I just go into conclusions that maybe this time someone was falling for me first and dumb enough to convince myself that that was real? And maybe all of a sudden I just fell, right there and then. No questions asked, no strings pulled. Hayayay... I'm too proud to admit it but yes, maybe those things are absolutely true. I'm always stupidly in love. I'm an idiot, and I don't know what to do about it.

I guess the only solution to this is to really, really, really never expect, never assume, never ask and never demand. Just let it be. Because if it's meant to be, it will be.

P.S. This picture of mine was not taken right now or moments ago. I just found that and thought my expression fits perfectly. Haha!