Brave

I saw my sister tweeting stuff again, drama overload kind of stuff, so I asked her what's up and we chatted. It is seldom for us to have these mature talks that break my heart a little but at the same time I feel glad that we are both growing up. We are in the know of serious things and we just don't think or talk about petty stuff. But my heart shatters knowing that I know how it feels to be at the bottom. I know how it feels to feel like crying is the only way out. I know the feeling of succumbing to the pain and almost getting insane with all the depressing thoughts. I seriously know how she feels. And I know how much that sucks. It sucks so bad that I don't want her to feel all those things. I don't want to see her become messed up like suicidal people I see on the web, posting what-nots about depression-stained life. But what sucks more is that I don't know what to do about it or if I can do something about it. I am certain I cannot do anything about what is causing all this, because personally that is also my problem but I choose not to acknowledge it often. I try to shift my attention to my (lack of) lovelife, so maybe this is the reason why I have fallen head-crazy-over-heels for that certain guy! Anyway, I can change her outlook regarding the problem like I keep on giving her advice and techniques to divert her attention, but if she chooses to maintain how she sees things, it's useless. Anyway I hope she knows what she's doing, because if I were in her shoes I would will myself not to cry and breakdown, I would stick to the plan and motivate myself. The plan is to be strong no matter what storm comes my way. It is either a lesson or a challenge. We're stronger than we think we are. All we need is to be brave enough to know that and keep it in mind. I'm too full of pride to cry too because I know that God is bigger than my problems. I have a lot of faith in Him and I know He is telling me to be strong. Also, being in my lowest point, the only way from here is to go up. That is at least something to keep in mind and anticipate, right? And, one of the most effective way to fight this is to be grateful for what you have. Sometimes when I find time I write on my little notebook 10 Things I am thankful for on that day. It makes me feel happy and blessed. No matter how bad my day was there will surely be ten things I will be grateful for. The Lord will never fail nor abandon us. It is just up to us if we acknowledge all He has done/keeps on doing for us. So, see, it's just all in the mind. We can do something about the impediments that often arrive in our lives. We can make ourselves be greater and much stronger than them. As long as we believe in it, we can.


P.S. Love this song: Brave - Sara Bareilles <3 p="">