Note: This is not about my lovelife (if I ever had one)
nor is it about my crush/es.
It's too private to share,
so I'm blurring the details because I have to let this out...
I feel like crying... It's like I lost something so dear to my heart, let's say a pet, perhaps, who suddenly went away and found a new owner to be fond of. I'm quite a possessive person when it comes to people, especially if they're really close to me. That's because you are like our prized valuables. I don't want to lose you nor let you be taken away from us because in the first place, you are mine. Right? Okay, maybe I can share, I'm not THAT selfish anyway, but would they want to? Tsk. I don't think so. Because they're hogging you all to themselves. Or you made your decision to go - away from me. Okay, maybe I'm too self-centered, talking like I own you, so I guess it really is supposedly meant to be like this? Who am I kidding? You own your life. I don't. I just care about you, I want to spend time with you. But... It's like you're forgetting that I'm here. You found someone to replace me with, I guess. Now I really feel sad... and abandoned. And gloomy. And really, really sad. It feels like I lost to a game, and somebody won you. And it pains me so much seeing you with "them." Were you unhappy staying with us? Do you feel happier with them? I think there's nothing I can do about this. It's your choice, and like I said, it's your life. I just hope one day you'd get back to us, realize that we were first than them. And we miss you a lot. I miss you.
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