RANDOMIZED

I wanna share random facts (and secrets) about me:)

1) I love Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches esp. the combined taste. YUM.
2) I secretly am excited to eat. Hihi. "takaw" yeah I knowww.
3) I don't say bad words coz I think it's bad:)
4) I am vain yet still simple:)
5) I want it allllll but IDK what's that all:p
6) I hate creepy insects. And animals too!
7) I always have a crush:')
8) I am forgetful:| TSS.
9) I am afraid of being alone but I can manage.
10) I really do fear God:) Swear. So, I love Him and I glorify Him:)
11) I forget to put on perfume or cologne HAHA so technically I don't spray some on me.
12) I have tons of best friends. They're all the best.

-tobecontiinued.

Useless

So.. Yeah, I guess that’s it. That is what’s wrong with me! I’m too.. Possessive? Selfish? Self-centered? Assuming? K. Gonna flood you with more adjectives but not in the mood to:) WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! Am I too bitter to accept things? Am I too insecure to accept facts? YUHHH. I guess I am:( No intention to deny. HUHU. SAAAD. I mean, yeah, I wanna say, w-t-heck, he’s all yours. But, big question coming up, IS he even mine? IS he mine to give to others? K. FEELER MUCH. Ugh, sorry about the informal way, *if ever you are reading this and thanks if ever. JUST LETTING OUT MY FRUSTRATION, DEVASTATION, ANGER, FIERY, ETC && ETC!* HAHA. See? Can’t you see?? This is so wrong! How could I ever change this?:( I feel so helpless and vulnerable every time I see something. I have the urge to hate someone as well, though I’m not ought to and why the heck should I even?

Random blah-blah again. Complicated.

Crazy-in-Love

I think about you all the time
My head, spinning along
With every thought of you and me
Oh, I miss you like crazy.

Baby, can't you see?
My love for you is true
Genuinely and really, really true
As if cupid's arrows had hit me roughly.

When I see you from afar
Yeah, every time quite away from me
I feel my guts become squirmy
You make me love sick, dear.

I know I'm crazy-in-love with you
I can't seem to let you out of my head
Whenever I see you, I smile insanely
And every time, it hurts my heart.

Oh baby, coz I'm definitely crazy-in-love.
Crazy-in-love with you. ♥

---nung August 30, 2010 pa to. On RA:) HAHA now, I'm not anymore. :p

Random Blah-blah

Okay, I'm feeling kind of depressed again. Huhu. It's like, HE's a somebody to me yet I'm a nobody to him. How sad is that? My eyes are burning, waiting for him to do, uh IDK, pm me or something. But no, NOT A SINGLE THING. Saaaad.

Okay, so he knows. But I can see that he doesn't mind, which is a good thing though. BUT it still is super ouch. Seriously. :( WHYYYY??

Uh, sometimes I do regret tons of things. But I guess, life will take us by surprise. Let's just wait for the next one:(

One day

One day, I was afraid. Quite anxious of what might await me in this new atmosphere. Later I learned that it was fine. In life we need to be strong and daring. Risks should be captured, challenges must be undertaken. Whether you like it or not, you must and you should.

One day, I realized that my cheeks blushed. I learned that I’m growing up. Oh goody, I’m not a little girl anymore. Alongside the fact that I am indeed growing up, I have to keep in mind what’s expected of me. I should be more responsible. I should be matured enough to act wisely and carry out pure goodness with fidelity.

One day, I saw tears flowing down my eyes. I learned how hard life actually is. It’s not always about you. It’s not always about what you want, what you like or what you don’t. Heck, it’s not about you! We are surrounded by thousands of people. We all live in one world only, which revolves simply because life does.

One day, I was delighted. I was quite overwhelmed because of my friends and family. Mesmerized by their love and friendship, I learned how magnificent life really is. In spite of struggles and hardships, a smile will always turn up after a frown.

One day, I was abashed of sulking often. God is always here to help us. He is just here, waiting for us to need Him. I learned no matter how hard problems are, there is always this Someone who’ll never leave our side no matter what.

One day, I saw myself smiling up unto the tantalizing sky. Clouds so magnificent God might have painted them with awe-inspiring delight. I learned to appreciate small things around me. It never pains us to thank Him for the little pieces of His masterpiece. I also learned we should not take things for granted. They would not last forever. Thus we should appreciate them while we can.

One day, I made a face. It’s not a smile, nor a frown. It’s not even a pout or a poker face. I noticed how much wisdom I gained and precious memos I grasped ever since I stayed in this environment I’m currently at. I became devastated after a while, thinking that time is running out. Soon, I would leave and so would everyone I lived with. Sooner than soon, I would no longer be staying at the usual places and whereabouts I’ve known for years.

But one day, I’d think about ACSCI and I would surely have a teary-eyed smile. Whoever I would be on that day wouldn’t be the same if I didn’t dwell on this extraordinary school. :-)

--- English Journal, Sentiments of being in Acsci. HAHA ang random. di ko lam, on the spot yan. sorry naman. :p

Till the End of Time

The world is continuously moving in its own axis, like a jet on autopilot mode or like a butterfly going through its metamorphosis. It is a bullet on the go, selfish enough to strike through whatever that blocks its way. A bird may die, a plant may rot or an ocean might dry. Nevertheless, the world, that self-centered thing, doesn’t care nor mind. It will not even show a bit of distress, regret or concern. Instead, it is a blind man, justly oblivious of the world that lies in front of him.

I wonder what it feels like to have a life. Having to breathe fresh air, run like you’re running for your life and eat until your tummy feels like it’s about to blow. If only I could, I would sue whoever finished mine. My unused life, my worthless existence, oh, justice needs to be served right now. I didn’t even felt how it is to live. Oh, what an unfair dwelling.

People do things without thinking, not realizing what consequences might haunt them afterwards. Doesn’t this place which I once thought as a place of enchantment have regulations to abide? There are laws pertaining to this matter, aren’t there? Well, although those exist, how come certain people, including myself, are deprived of something that indeed truly matters? Let’s say, life, for instance. How about it, huh?

Who are they to tolerate this act? Who are they to even do this unforgivable deed? Who are they to take a life from an unborn but fair-deserving child? Who?? Who are they?!

This uneasiness and confusion that lies beyond my thoughts will forever hang about there. They will stay there along my never-ending whereabouts about the world I almost saw. Well, I guess this is it. This bitterness currently at hand will always be with me till the end of time. If it has an end, that is.

--- English Journal on Abortion:>

Starry Much

Okay, I'm getting tired of this. I hate this feeling. For the nth time, it feels.. painful. Frustrating. Saddening.

It's like reaching for the stars...impossible.

Superrrr! I'll just let it be.. Fine. It's not my loss. I think?:\

What I know is that I'm too addicted to you. Whether you know it or not, I can't happen to let it fade away. :( And I don't know why! :(((

You like this girl. You liked these girls who seem all that. What am I if matched to them?! So, fine, let's go on. I'll try my best to not mind and care. HAHA. Joke.



EMO MUCH. Don't mind me:>

Overl@p It

Okay, I could hardly believe I'm all smiles right now. I guess life is really fair, huh? You get hurt, you'll be fine. Someone gets out of your life, somebody will show up. Simple. It's like a universal rule or something.

Anyway, at first I was afraid. Afraid of what will happen after. Afraid that it would hurt like I'm being slaughtered. Afraid that someday, I'll just regret what I will do, just like how I am now regretting what I did.

But I think there's no reason for us to be afraid at all. Sometimes, we have to take the risk and see what may happen. Regretting what you did might be awful, but regretting that you didn't do anything is worse.

Life is all about risks and taking chances. It's also about grief, pain, love and just merely, chances. No matter what choice you pick, there's always that something that awaits you. Okay, connection? Joke. I just blah-blahed here.

Am I making sense at all? HAHA. I hope so.

Emotional status as of now, h@ppy:))))

FOR SENIORS' EYES ONLY

Cheaters never win. So, do you need a litany of murderous words to realize that WE DIDN'T CHEAT? Are we that low, hopeless and DESPERATE just to have that stupid trophy?? Tsk. Bitter people! You should go get a dictionary and look up for the words SPORTSMANSHIP and ACCEPTANCE. What kind of students do you think we are? We still have guilt, conscience and PRIDE & DIGNITY, you know. JUST LIKE YOU. So don't be judgmental. Let's all be open-minded enough to realize all this.

---I don't mean to offend anyone here. I'm just letting my frustrations out. I didn't ask you to read this if you're not a Senior. Hence, if I could, I would make this private. So I'm sorry if ever you disagree with me or if I offended you or if you want to burn me alive right now. (JOKE!)

Favor please, what you read here stays here. THIS IS MY BLOG and let's mind our own businesses please.

I REPEAT, FOR SENIORS' EYES ONLY. YOU DON'T HAVE A RIGHT TO READ THIS if you aren't a Senior SO YOU BETTER NOT REACT ABOUT MY BLOG POST. There's such a thing called Human Rights >:)