All I Want For Christmas Is...

So, my "monthly visitor" had just arrived. Maybe it can take the blame for my sudden crazy talk because apparently, all I want for Christmas is a Special Someone.

Yep. A Special Someone. I don't mean a boyfriend nor a fling, but someone special who would suddenly come into my life and sweep me off my feet and... Yeah, you get the picture.Something like, "more than friends but less than lovers." I don't think I would even want to be in a relationship right now (nor if I am allowed to.) Yet, somehow, I'm feeling this again, like a craving for ice-cream or chocolate, but a craving for affection instead. I just want to experience the typical "puppy love" stuff because that's all I'm ready for right now. I just want somebody. To be here. With me. That's all I'm asking for. A Special Someone. And I want it for Christmas.

Actually, there are a few reasons that triggered this crazy talk. One of which is this tv series I've been loving. Awkward is about this girl, Jenna, who fell for a popular guy, Matty, and things got mixed up because she also fell for Matty's bestfriend. Anyway, you have to watch it to know the deets and it's really good, swear. Plus, Matty's bestfriend, Jake, is really cute and watching him with Jenna made me really jealous, although I am Team Jake. It's just that I envied their relationship because they were both too cute and all that. I want THAT. Seriosuly. Huhu, someone to cuddle and kid around with me and we would look cute and good together even if it's too corny. Hihi.

Then, my super classmate for this sem, Camille (hey there girly-slash-twin haha) and I just watched The Rise of the Guardians at SM Calamba. We ditched the Follies for this. All worth it! Gosh, I never thought I'd ever fall for a cartoon character. Really. Jack Frost is such a cutie! Plus, Chris Pine was the one who dubbed him. Double hotness!

Next, I recently finished Bakit Hindi Ka Crush ng Crush Mo? by Ramon Bautista. My head practically got hijacked with the NBSB, Friendzone, LDR, NBSB, those kind of stuff. I giggled a lot even if I were alone, but most of the time I can relate. Bakit Hindi Ako Crush ng Crush Ko?

Then, there's the typical love-at-first-sight-but-I'm-totally-wrong crushing on cute guys I just saw for the first time. I don't know why, but that is what is wrong with me. I instantly like guys at my first sight of them but actually it just stops there because there's a slim chance that I would ever see them again. That is why I want someone who will be here for me. Someone who will stay, maybe for a while if not for a long time. Anyone, please. And all I want for Christmas is you.  Well, maybe aside from the Philippines' safety, everyone's happiness on Christmas day and the Keds I've been rooting for. Haha!

A Not-So Merry Christmas This Year

The year 2012 has been really good to me. My first semester as a sophomore was a blast and I met a lot of new people who I consider so dear to me now. My grades were shockingly great, despite having to repeat a subject. My family and I became closer especially every Sunday which is our family day. On occasions our relatives and I would also bond like it was the good ol' days, like nothing has changed even if half of them are much older now and half of us are almost adults already. Although this second semester started so awful for me, having an initial 0 units things turned out right, thank you Lord, because I got 18 units worth of sweat and stress. And right now things have been so great collectively.

Christmas is what I am anticipating for, for it is the cherry on top of my year. We usually put up our Christmas tree and other ornaments a week or two before December, but this year, the first week of December had passed and our home seem so deserted compared to our neighbors who even have Christmas lights outside their houses. I really don't know why we have to change decors this year causing us to be so late for the Christmas vibe. Then second week, our Tita Emy, my dad's sister, passed away. It was all too fast, especially since we were just celebrating her post-birthday celebration the night before. I am so grateful I decided to go home that weekend or I missed saying goodbye to her even in oblivion.

It is just too devastating that the whole family became almost complete because of our loss. The irony of how things are sometimes is really so heartbreaking. All I can say is that we would miss you so much, Tita. We will always place you in our hearts, and we won't forget you. And whenever I think of you, I'll remember the jolly Tita Emy that we always have during occasions and family gatherings. I love you, Tita. ♥