Well, about losing people, I think things will never get better. The pain will never go away. Maybe, for a second or a minute or if you're lucky for a whole day, you'll be able to forget about it; but honestly, nope. The sadness and grief will always be in your heart. There will always come a time when you're probably enjoying yourself or you're just staring into nothing when it will hit you badly. You'll suddenly remember that you lost someone you dearly love in your life and it hurts like hell. It will forever hurt like hell.