I Refuse to Sink

I'm still lost at sea,
Unable to find my way,
Wandering nowhere.

I've been floating away,
Under the infinite skies,
Lost in the waves for a while.

I'm anxious and clueless,
Empty but full of feelings,
Helpless but hopeful.

I'm sick and tiresome of this;
For the sake of good and gracious
I want to be found and saved.

Rescue me please,
In this chaotic sea we call life,
Because I refuse to sink.

Ideal and Real

So there's this guy I was crushing on three years ago back in high school and now I happen to bump into his twitter account and followed him. Somehow I am crushing on him again. Of course, I stalked his twitter and instagram accounts and realized he may actually be my ideal guy. I love the idea that his life (or something like that) is almost similar to mine. We came from the same school in elementary (HFA) and both entered the same high school (AcSci) though he is a year younger than me. So it means that we have the same religious beliefs, which is a must. I was amused at how family-oriented he is because the only other person I know who's as clingy as he is to his family is me. It's just so weird how much we're alike. Of course, another interest that we both share is fondness in food. I am absolutely a self-proclaimed foodie and I think he is too. Aside from those things I like him because he looks so timid but I think he has this crazy side. He just looks so adorable I swear. He even reminds me of Nat Wolff. I don't know why, but somehow he looks like him. Anyway, he's tall, not-even-dark and handsome. Really, he is a cutie. He even wears eyeglasses which makes him cuter and more adorbs. Finally, I like him because he is my ideal guy and he is a real guy. He's not Augustus Waters or Oliver Queen but he is himself and he is real.

Okay, I feel like laughing at myself because even now that I'm no longer a teen, I still have these crazy illusions. Well, whatever. Right now, a crush is all I can afford. Besides, if it's meant to be, it will find its way. Who knows, I might end up with my ideal guy who's 100% real. Lol.